I have a bad habit of starting an entry and then taking forever to post it...my apologies.
I've been taking voice lessons for 2 semesters now. I've learned a BAGILLION and one things since starting my lessons. But one of the most important things I've learned is how to connect to my breath support, and I mean really support. Better than I ever have before.
The other most important thing I'm learning, is to be patient with my talents. So often I hear my voice during my voice lessons and I do not like what I hear. It sounds shallow and weak which is completely opposite from what I'm used to. I'm used to hearing a strong sound that is full and beautiful to be honest. But ever since I've been messing with my voice and learning more about classical singing and mixing etc etc, everything has just sounded and felt different. It doesn't hurt, and it doesn't sound bad. It's just different.
But here's the struggle.
When I'm singing and things aren't sounding right, I can hear in my head how it COULD sound. I can hear the potential that lies within, but it's just barely out of reach. I can see it but can't touch it so to speak.
Which means I get really frustrated quite easily these days when it comes to my voice. I forget that I still sound good and that I'm still growing and learning and maturing and Shannon Birch (my vocal instructor) has to remind me all over again that it's ok and that I'm doing everything right and that I need to be patient.
Some days are better than others and I catch a glimpse of the voice that's trying to dig its way out. And those days are incredible and that voice is so crazy talented that I'm humbled by it. I just wish it could stick around a little longer. I'll be singing and I can feel it edging through. It stays for a few moments and then I lose it.
But I know it's in there! The struggle may be real, but it will be completely worth it when all my hard work and practice pays off.
<3: CourtneyRae<3
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